Went to a meet and greet “all the arts” interface at a private home recently. It functions as a way for people working in the arts to kind of cross pollinate with other artists whose projects they may have not known about. Some simply advertise as to what they are doing and invite others. This took place the night before most of the Columbia, SC artists open up their studios for a well advertised self-guided tour and sale. This event has been building for the past few years, and we cannot participate because we don’t live in Richland County. Some in our situation rent spaces in downtown Columbia for the weekend so that they can cash in on the possibilities.
We met a dancer there that looked exactly like Selma Hayek when playing Frida Kahlo.
There was a tiny opera singer there, a very fancy person.
There were magazine publishers there, and wives, and many “assistants” who ran the event and tried to sell the art on the walls. I was able to meet and thank the publisher who just included an article on my recycling in his magazine as an Earth Day story. There were journalists, filmmakers; my raison d’etre.
It felt false. I put some postcards in my purse, but did not give any to anyone. I have two jobs right now and do not feel pushed in any way. What about finishing my pool, my gardens, laying brick, sanding old windows? We just created a gallery on the top floor of the barn and cannot find time to paint it. What about my upcoming hike on the AT?
The life comes first, not the art. If the life is artful, then the art will come. Do not confuse the two. The visual artists from last night looked lean and hungry. Darting eyes. I have been in that place and it is an uncomfortable and heavy place to reside.
I had a dream last night. A good friend, not an artist, was making MY art and doing it better. I tore off the fabric which made up my art from its stretchers, and found that the structure supporting the work was interesting. I decided that the support structure would be the art instead.
It looked very much like this, only all the lines and shapes were contained within a square perimeter.
One of my current projects is to create two new embroideries, something I have not done in years. One is finished, and it was easy to slip into that old obsession. It is my only thing where the expertise is unchallenged.